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Well, the first performance of the year was the kind that would spoil me if I expected every performance or most performances to reach the depths of this one! Everything went there! In my performances there is an invisible hidden secret state of erotic friction of arousing human intimacy rubbing between bodies without limits or glamour. Because it is invisible, you can not see it, only feel it. For example, we didn’t enter that state at the performance at the Center for Sex and Culture in San Francisco last summer, even though that was very erotic, visual, communal, tribal, etc. In fact, we last entered that state last February at Temescal.

The first couple to arrive actually set the tone, anchored /rooted the performance. The guy, Bobby, did that just by being there. Vicki turned out to be an actor. Her reading /acting out my poems throughout opened the door into the holy madness. Everything worked! It was possible to do a lot of the rituals [GESTURES, ROCKING, DRESSING, PROJECTING SLIDES ON NUDE DANCERS, etc] that have either set upon the shelf or haven’t reached the depths of arousing unknowns for awhile. And new rituals were introduced [UNDRESS THE CAMERAMAN, THE SIAMESE WAIST BANDS, TAKING /READING NOTES, etc]. There was just the right amount of resistance so that important issues could be explored, and to reveal that zones of comfort are silly and really prisons. [I am imagining the shit about being a homophobe a straight guy would get if he gave the reasons for not wanting to undress the cameraman that the Lesbian gave!] But Amy and her friend stepped up and by being actively lustfully abandoned willing to play and trust, broke everything open for everybody. And they did it as just fun, no big deal. I liked exploring his butt! Everything started floating into that juicy secret space as Amy started rocking on my lap, prickly freedom going all the way into both fusion and infusion of arousing magical pleasure erotic friction of comfort. Tomek’s surreal music created waves connecting the holy dancers together as they [us] webbed and flowed into different combinations and forms and roles without limits or judgments. Amy and her friend [he obviously hadn’t done anything like this before!] made it possible by simply trusting… Trusting so deeply, they could reshape the dance without avoiding anything. A whole band appeared at this point to join Tomek [they would disappear when the dance was over!]! Things got hot and surreal, while staying simple and human. Intimacy, closeness among everybody who stayed welded us into a cozy tribal body. Our skin [the organ of connection] webbed all of us together as the rubbing went all the way deeper into calm pleasure, as Vicki threw herself on the floor and rocked and belted out the words of the poem. I wish I could take credit for creating such a dramatic, erotic turn-on of an event. But I just followed the possibilities that the willingness people brought to the space created.

Da Boyz:

We arrived to Temescal a little earlier than usual, which turned out to be a good thing because there was a snag with the lights! After the performance, Herb, who does a lot of stuff at Temescal also, helped Mikee figure it out. So we did a last minute lighting adjustment, and Frank got going. He had to tell some of the early arrivals to hold onto their stories … “Save it for the performance!” He told Vicki, an actress who was the first to arrive with her German husband, that he sometimes is not even visible when performances start. He is hidden!

There were two new wall hangings for this performance: banner versions of Frank’s recent computer paintings, “Falling In Love” and “Let’s Twist Again”. They looked beautiful!

Right at 8, more people came in and Frank started talking with Vicky … he said, “As you were saying …” She had seen a flier for the performance up somewhere on Shattuck in Berkeley and went to the music & arts section of the Berkeley Public library, and had the librarian there google it! She said it was in her neighborhood and easy to get to … She said she is an actress, and has always wanted to be on stage, with an audience … never wanted fame, but to be on stage, with that audience reaction. Frank said that she had told him, before things started, that they spend half the year in France, and that he had just read the biography of Jean Genet.

Then Frank turned to a guy next to her, wearing a green Marvin the Martian Looney Tunes shirt. He said he loved the big backdrop, that it reminded him of Zap Comics. He had also seen the flier on a pole, near the Ashby BART, and had taken a picture of it. He had remembered seeing Frank on TV maybe 10 years ago … Frank asked him to describe what he had seen … He said he didn’t remember a lot from that time period, because he was practicing illegal forms of “meditation”. But he did not watch a lot of TV, and was picky about what he watched, and this really stood out … you went from one channel, “Fantasy Island”, to Frank’s show: “Fantasy”. He said it was a bunch of people in a room, he remembered Frank was there, and he thought Linda too … he said, “how should I put this” … it was very relaxed, and people were all naked, together in a very relaxed way. Frank asked, “A room like this?” He said perhaps … but it didn’t seem that the room was what was important about it … Frank asked him what was important …? He said it was the feeling of everyone there, very relaxed. Frank asked him about himself too at some point … he is studying psychology, and works at Options, a recovery center. If he gets a degree, he said he could get paid for what he already does.

Next Frank turned to a pair of women in the center of the room. He asked one first what had brought her to the performance. She said her girlfriend had told her about it, had seen the flier, and said that it would be good for her to see “Live Art”. They were attracted by the part of the flier that said, “Bring your sense of humor” … Frank asked her how uncomfortable she was willing to be? She said it depends on to what degree? Frank asked what degree was she willing? She said she was willing to be uncomfortable as long as it was positive. Frank asked her if being uncomfortable is negative? She said, no, not necessarily … Frank then asked her if she would undress the camera guy (Corey)? She said, right away, “No.”

“Why?” Frank asked.

“Because I’m gay,” she replied.

“What does your sexual preference have to do with it?” Frank asked.

“Well, its more that I am in a committed relationship, and don’t feel the need to do anything like that with another person …”

Frank asked her, “Is he gay?”

She said, “I don’t know …”

Vicki chimed in, “Only the cameraman knows …” And Frank said, “Not necessarily!” Everyone was laughing!

Frank turned to the girlfriend, and asked her if she was willing to be uncomfortable? She said, “No.” Frank asked, “So why did you come to the Uncomfortable Zones of Fun?” She said she really didn’t know … Later in the performance, he came back to her, and asked if she was “comfortable”? She said yes, but her back hurt from sitting on the floor … Frank suggested she could lie down, but she said she was ok … The two of them left later when things started getting juicier!

So now Frank talked to another pair of women who had come in, one with glasses, and her friend. Frank asked the first one what had attracted her to the performance. She said her friend had told her about it … “What lies did she tell you?!” Frank asked. She said, “Well, that I wouldn’t have to speak!” It turned out that she hadn’t actually seen the flier, or heard what it said … Frank had Vicki read it aloud. Her friend said that she had basically told her that it would be “weird”. Frank asked the friend why she had wanted to come? She said that really it was because she had a school project where she needed to write a page describing a performance. She had seen a flier for this, and had thought that this would be a challenge to write about.

Frank talked to several others who had come in … one was a dental hygienist from West Virginia, who just moved here … she had come with two others, an unemployed soccer player who liked to read, and a waitress/bartender who was studying to be a massage therapist. They had all been together at the Albany Bulb, drinking wine and watching the sunset, and had wondered what they would do that night? They looked online, and found this! It had sounded interesting and it was free … They were all willing to be uncomfortable …

We think at this point Frank returned to the girl who was writing the page for school … he asked her if she would undress the camera guy? She said, “No.” Frank again asked why? She said that it was because her first choice for coming to the performance with her that night was her husband, and while she did not personally feel uncomfortable with doing that, she knew that he would feel uncomfortable hearing about it, because she would tell him about it, and she didn’t want to do that. Then she added, “Also, the camera man looks like my husband.” There was a roar of laughter! Frank asked, “Is that good or bad?” More laughter! She said, “Well I married him …”

Then Frank turned to the Marvin the Martian guy, and asked him if he would undress Corey, but in the midst of what we think was a “yes”, the waitress in back piped up, “I’ll undress him just to get rid of that shirt!” So Frank said, “Be my guest …”

She introduced herself to Corey as Amy, and took off his shirt and shorts … she asked about the socks? Frank asked if Corey’s feet were clean? He said he didn’t know! They left the socks on!

So now Corey was nude behind the camera, and Frank had noticed that the one woman was taking notes for her school project … he asked her to read them. The notes took everyone back through the events thus far, through the first girl who would not undress Corey because “she was gay” … everyone was laughing, even her! It showed up how absurd it was! Very fun to hear it recounted this way. In the text, she had written that Frank was “goading” the audience to undress the camera guy! Frank asked Corey how it felt for him to be “goading” the audience to undress him! And then he said, “I could not come up with this … or did I??” “Maybe you are a plant?” he asked the note-taker. She said, “Maybe …”

We think now Frank turned to a girl with dreads … she was an acupressure student, and had also seen the flier on a pole and taken a picture of it … she had been attracted by the idea of being uncomfortable, how it can be a good thing … she had been a sociology student and had been fascinated by taboos. She talked about how there are very simple things that can be taboo, like standing outside in a public space and doing nothing for 10 minutes. Many people only think of the extremes when they think of “taboo”, but it was interesting to her the many simpler things that become taboo. She asked Frank what he thought was the most taboo thing in our culture? Frank said that it depends … For example, he told the story of a performance at Passion Flower, an adult store that hosted several of Frank’s performances … Linda described how they did “Gestures”, and Frank said that when it came to the gesture of rubbing feet, foot to foot, the guys freaked out. That was more taboo than anything else. The sociologist asked, so its the context then? Frank said yes … She asked if he could describe what is behind what he does? In response, Frank asked if Vicki would read his poem, “I Came To Play”. Then he turned to Amy the waitress, and the soccer player, and asked if they would come up and dress only in the costumes and jewelry that were laid out? They said yes, and came up …. Frank wanted to be sure that they understood the “only” part. They got it, and they were willing!

So while Vicki did a very enthusiastic and dramatic reading of “I Came To Play”, Amy and the soccer player came up and picked out things to wear, and then took off their clothes, and put on the costumes and Betty’s jewelry … Frank told them about Betty, and Amy thanked Betty for the beautiful jewelry. She said, “She has good taste!” We think it was also here that Frank asked if the sociologist would rock Unruhlee … so she rocked him in her arms while the rest of this was going on.

After the poem had been read, and Amy and the soccer dude had sat down, Frank asked them how they felt? Amy said, “Alive!” Frank asked if she could expand upon that? She said that she was not really uncomfortable getting undressed in front of people, was comfortable with her body, but she really liked the experience of going through that with her friend, doing it together, and she thought that they would be much better friends now.

Meanwhile! Tomek had come in and was playing during most of this, an amazing dreamy electronic soundscape behind everything that was going on.

The sociologist spoke up … she said something along the lines of noticing that Frank facilitates who does what during the performance, and she wondered if there were certain things that were more uncomfortable for certain people, and not for others. For example, Amy was not uncomfortable with getting undressed in front of people, but maybe there was something else that would be uncomfortable for her …

It may have been right around this point that Frank brought up his new “thing”. Linda described the double elastic band that Erika had sewed together … it was something that Frank had come up with for two people to get into, and dance together. So they would be connected with elastic at the waist … He asked Amy and her friend if they would come up and try it? Sure they would.

So they danced around in the double elastic, which was a lot of fun. Frank told them after the performance that they really opened things up in the performance, their willingness. Frank asked if Erika would rock Unruhlee, so they rocked together for a while …

After this, Frank asked if Amy would undress him, and if she and her friend would do Gestures with him? Linda described Gestures … Frank also asked if Erika and Unruhlee would undress and do Gestures, and did anyone else want to do Gestures? No one spoke up …

So Unruhlee and Erika, Frank, Amy and her friend did the Gestures that Linda read … the music continued … After a while of Gestures, Frank asked Amy if she would be the rocker … rocking on his lap while Linda danced with them, touching them, and Amy’s friend could join Unruhlee and Erika, dancing together. Would Amy undress Linda? Yes. And would Vicki read Frank’s poem, “Wrapping and Rocking”, repeating it, as they rocked and danced …? Yes she would. Frank had Mikee lower the lights and turn the slides on, and Amy rocked on Frank’s lap while Linda danced soft with them, and the three others danced very playfully! While they rocked, a group of musicians arrived who had come to previous performances in the series. A trumpet player started up, jamming with Tomek, and another guy was on the tom tom drums, and another friend played various toy instruments. The music was incredible! The rocking and dancing was beautiful! When Vicki’s voice gave out, Herb volunteered to sing the poem, which was really wonderful. The rocking and dancing went on … at some point, Linda took Amy’s place, and Amy and her friend danced around Linda and Frank rocking … And then a little later, Frank had Amy and her friend dance together while Unruhlee and Erika danced, and Linda rocked on Frank …. Frank asked Vicki if she would read “Wrapping and Rocking” one last time? She did an amazing reading of the poem, falling onto her knees and acting out the various images that the poem brings out of rocking … like,

“the boys rocking
uncontrollable from laughter
at their childish pranks.”

It was really amazing! And shortly afterward, Frank had Linda say, “The End.”

Now Frank asked folks what they thought of the performance … Vicki wanted to tell Frank and everyone there that she was what they call “bi-polar” and has had some very extreme experiences, including thinking one time that she had become a dog, but that she wanted to thank Frank for this experience, that she had really enjoyed it, had enjoyed reading Frank’s poems, and was buying Chapped Lap. Frank asked her to come back, and she said she would, not next month, but maybe the month after. Herb said that it was hard to switch into “verbal” mode after he had been singing, but that he really liked it. Frank told him how much he loved the Temescal space. Herb is very involved in the space, and feels the same way, and wants very much for the space to survive.

The dental hygienist said that she had really enjoyed it too. She said she hadn’t been uncomfortable. By the end of the night, the acupressure sociologist, and the note-taker and her friend had both left as well. Vicki’s husband said that he really didn’t know what to say about the night, but that it had been great, he had really liked it. He just didn’t know what to say! Amy said that it had “revived” her, to do things like this with likeminded people. Her friend said that he had never done anything like this before in his life, but that he really enjoyed himself. Erika said she really liked the rocking and dancing, and loved how Amy and her friend had been willing to participate.

Next was Unruhlee … what did he think? Frank made a sound and a face! Linda asked if hearing this made Frank uncomfortable? Yes! Everyone laughed. Unruhlee said that it was a great night … and he showed everyone a copy of this zine that he had put together about 15 years ago called GAWE, “Gardeners Against the Work Ethic” … it was a kind of performance piece, creating gardens in people’s front yards in Madison, which was inspired very much by Frank’s writings, especially his writings about eroplay. They had incorporated eroplay dancing into the gardening events … He and Frank and Linda remembered how he had come with a tour of people on a bus and Frank had created a performance for them to participate in at 848 space in SF. Someone asked Unruhlee how he got his name? He said it started as a joke, which he tries to live up to. Frank added, “And fails!” “Touche,” said Unruhlee.

Frank asked Amy if she would like to get together, and she said, “Yes!”

Frank turned to Linda, “I did it!” Yes! Linda explained Frank’s hospital experience over the summer, and how he had ended up with a trach. and a PEG tube, and how big a deal it was now for us to be here, and for Frank to be performing. Really amazing! And wonderful.

Afterward, Frank and Linda talked more with Herb about Temescal … Frank kept telling him how much he loved the space. We packed up the props and ate delicious popcorn and talked about the performance. Another amazing performance! Frank had said at one point that it was one of the best groups of people, because of how willing people were to participate … Linda said that it often only takes one person willing to participate, and then it creates an experience that everyone has together, even if they are just watching.

ERIKA:

The January Uncomfortable Zones of Fun. We Are Back!! We got to Temescal and got everything set up including Frank’s new blown up paintings on vinyl “Let’s Twist Again,” and “Falling In Love.” They looked great behind where Frank and Linda would be sitting. Frank, Linda and Mikee arrived and we were doing our final set up when we couldn’t get the power to work on the light board! While people were arriving Corey and Alexi rigged up some extension cords up to the ceiling to the lights. It worked and we had a few lights!!

There was a couple that spends half of their time in France who came early. The woman Vicki sat right up near Frank and Linda and started talking about how she had seen the flyer for the performance and Frank said to wait until the camera was rolling. Soon more people arrived and Frank started going around and talking to them. The woman who had come early said that she saw a flyer up and had gone to the art/music library where she is part of a play reading group and had the woman at the library googled Frank for her. The performance was near where she lived and that made it easy to come. She was an actress who never dreamed of being a star but enjoyed the audience and interacting with the audience. Linda said that they had just been listening to the biography of Jen Genet. Her husband came with her who worked on old cars and traveled around Europe part of the year. They both enjoyed seeing postcards of Frank’s oil paintings before the performance had started.

There was a guy who had also seen a flyer and really loved the art on it and on the back drops. He said Mikee’s art reminded him of comics he reads. He was studying psychology and works at Options a recovery center. He said he is going to school in psychology so he can get paid for what he already does. He had seen Frank and Linda on cable TV ten years ago. He said that it was very memorable and there wasn’t a lot that he remembered from that time period because he had been doing a lot of illegal forms of mediation at the time. He said he was very picky about what he watches on TV and there was Frank and Linda and some others, nude and looking very comfortable in a room. Frank said much like this room here and he said yes although it didn’t seem to be much about the room but how the people were together who were nude and very relaxed and comfortable.

There were two women in the center of the room who came together. One of them had seen the flyer at a BART station and told her girl friend about it. When Frank asked them what had attracted them to the flyer they said that they didn’t know but that it was live art and to bring a sense of humor. They were both students, one a nursing student. They had not seemed to notice that the title was “The Uncomfortable Zones of Fun”. Frank asked the nursing student if she was willing to be uncomfortable and to what degree. She said that that depended on if it was positive or not. Frank asked her if she would undress the camera guy. She said “no,”. Frank asked her why and she said because she didn’t want to. Frank asked her why and she said that she didn’t want to do it because she was gay. Frank asked her why her sexual preference had anything to do with it. She said she was in a committed relationship and that she did not need to do anything physical with anyone else other that the person she was with. Her girlfriend was there with her and she had been the one who had seen the flyer. Frank asked her if the camera guy was gay and she said that she did not know. Vicki the actress said that only the camera guy knows and Frank said not necessarily!

Another woman had come with her friend who had seen a posting on-line about the performance. Frank asked her what lies her friend had told her about the performance and she said that her friend had told her that she was not going to have to speak at the performance! Frank had Vicki the actress read the flyer “Uncomfortable Zones of Fun,” experiments in experience participation performance. Frank asked her friend why she had not told her friend all of that and she said she did tell her that it was going to be weird so she had been warned. She said that she needed to go to some event and write about culture for a school project and she had found the posting for the performance at 5:00. She had a strong feeling to come and to bring her friend with her. She was looking for something that would be hard to write about and Frank said you found it!

There was another woman who had just moved to the bay area from West Virginia. She was a dental hygienist and she had come to meet people and see new things. Frank said clean teeth and he opened his mouth ready for her. There was a guy with them who was unemployed who liked to play soccer. They had all been at Albany Bulb drinking wine together and were looking for something to do so they goggled and found Frank’s performance. Their other friend was a waitress and a bartender who was in massage school.

Frank asked a couple more people if they would take the camera guys clothes off. The woman who was a hygienist said “No,” Frank asked the woman who came for a class project if she would undress the camera guy and she said no. Frank asked her why and she said that because although she was there and agreed to be uncomfortable her husband was not there and had not agreed to be uncomfortable and she would go home and tell him all about it. And she said besides, the camera looks a lot like her husband. Everyone laughed and Frank asked if that was good or bad? She said well it was good because I married him. Then Frank asked the guy who saw Frank and Linda on TV ten years ago he said he would and he said yes. Amy, the woman who was in massage school also said yes at the same time just to get that shirt off of him. Corey had a bright colored flowered shirt on with Hawaiian shorts. She went up and undressed Corey. Frank asked her if she was gay and she said no but that she was open to love with all people. He asked her if her sexual preference came into undressing Corey and she said no because Corey was a human being and she did not know him. She would need to know him to be sexually attracted to him.

The woman who wouldn’t undress the camera guy because he looked like her husband had been taking notes for her school write-up so Frank asked her to read her notes. Frank said he couldn’t come up with this stuff! She recounted what had happened so far including the part about why the woman who was gay did not want to undress Corey. She too was laughing at this point as well hearing the re-telling of her reasoning for not undressing the camera guy. Frank asked her girlfriend how uncomfortable she was now and she said that she was comfortable except for her back. Frank said lay down and she said no she was ok. Obviously they were both uncomfortable and left shortly after that when people stared undressing each other.

Frank talked to a woman who was an acupressure student who had also studied sociology. She was interested in taboos. She said that there are lots of taboos, simple ones that make people really uncomfortable and that it is good to go into what is uncomfortable and taboo in order to free. Frank asked her what taboos are and she said that there are all kinds of simple ones like being in public and not doing anything. People expect you to be waiting for someone or talking on your phone but to be in public not doing anything makes people really uncomfortable. She said that although it was good to go into what is uncomfortable and taboo she did not want to do that tonight. Frank asked her why and she said that she didn’t have a good reason other that it is comfortable not to and it takes a lot to push yourself to do things that are uncomfortable. Frank and Linda talked about the zones of comfort and how people are always talking about their zones of comfort. When you go into what is uncomfortable then there is true comfort which is flexible comfort. The woman said that it takes trust to go into what is uncomfortable. Frank asked her if she trusted, trusted people, trusted life. She said yes for the most part. She asked Frank what was the most taboo thing and Frank said that it depends. Frank and Linda talked about doing gestures with people at Passion Flower and adult shop and how people would do all kinds of stuff but when it came time to touch each others feet, feet to feet the guys freaked out and became very uncomfortable. And this was at a place where you would think people would be into feet.

The sociologist asked Frank if he could describe what breaking taboos is in his work. Frank asked her to rock Unruhlee while Vicki the actress read “I Came to Play.” Then Frank had Erika rock Unruhlee. Frank asked Amy and her friend who was a guy to come up and undress each other and dress in costumes which they did. Frank asked them how they felt after putting the costumes on. Amy said that she felt comfortable being nude but that it was fun to do it with her friend. The sociologist said that different things were uncomfortable to different people and because Amy was comfortable being nude, comfortable with her body maybe getting undressed with her friend wasn’t the thing to do to be uncomfortable. Then Frank had Amy and her friend try the newest costume, a couple of pieces of elastic sewed together. Erika helped them put it on in the center of the room. They danced belly to belly. Frank asked Amy if she would do gestures with Frank and her friend would join them. Erika and Unruhlee did gestures together. Frank asked if anybody else wanted to do gestures and nobody did. Everyone undressed and Linda began reading the gestures. Look at each other childlike, touch each others knees knowingly, sensually touch each others butts. Then Frank asked Amy if she would rock on Frank’s lap while Vicki read Frank’s poem “Wrapping and Rocking,” over and over. Unruhlee and Erika would dance together and Amy’s friend who was also in costume would dance with them. At some point Frank had Amy undress Linda and she joined them rocking and dancing.

Tomek played an amazing jam of music throughout the night. At some point during the dancing and rocking some other musicians came in and joined him with horns and other instruments. They had come to portions of performances before and just jumped right in. Vicki said that she needed someone to take over reading “Wrapping and Rocking.” Herb a guy who is involved in the Temescal space took over doing an amazing and beautiful singing of the poem which sounded great with the musicians. The dancing and rocking continued for a long time, bodies intertwining in a soft deep erotic exploration of skin. Amy and her friend had opened up all of this when they said yes and came up put on costumes and danced and rocked with Frank and Linda. At the end Linda said that that is all it takes a couple of people who are willing and then it opens everything up. Even the people who are watching feel a part of it. At some point the guy who came with Amy joined her with Linda and Frank and Unruhlee and Erika continued dancing. It was a long time of deep dancing.

More people began to leave when the rocking and dancing started. The woman who was a sociologist and her friend left and then the woman who had been notes also left. At the end Frank went around and asked what people thought of the night. Herb the guy connected to the Temescal space said that it would take him a while to find words but that it had been a great night. Frank said that he hoped that Temescal would keep a float and that Frank really loved the space. Herb did to and said he would do what he could. The guy who lived in France part of the year said that he didn’t know what to think but that it had been a great night. The woman who was a hygienist said that it has been a really great night and that she wasn’t uncomfortable. Amy said that it had been fun and also at times uncomfortable up dancing doing things that she had not done before. Her friend said too that he had never done anything like it and it felt good. Unruhlee said that it was a good night. Frank said that he was uncomfortable with what Unruhlee might say. Someone asked why his name was Unruhlee and he said someone had come up with it a long time ago and that he tries to live up to it. Frank said that he doesn’t. Frank said that Frank did it again and Linda told about how Frank had been in the hospital for weeks over the summer and then months of rehab and how we were up against the pictures the doctors had about Frank because he did not fit these pictures. Some said that Frank wouldn’t make it or that he would never eat again or that he would not get his trach tube out but he had done all of that and he was back doing performances again and how that in and of itself was amazing and felt so good. Tomek came up at the end and said you did it again Frank!!!

In Freedom,
Frank Moore

Hi Frank
Yes I want to be on E-SALON!
I will send my commentary on the performance soon, life has just gotten busy and complicated all of a sudden. Must be the impending holidays. I don’t even have a stay in the hospital to blame 😉
Hope you are well
Miriam

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In Freedom,
Frank Moore

Ah, the last performance of the year and the first full out performance since May when I almost died. It is like riding a horse or a bike [I have done both]… You never forget how to do it, they say. But the large crowd tested that theory. Usually when it is stormy outside, we don’t get many people. It is the same for over the holidays. But both didn’t keep people away this time. So I was faced with a rug full of people eager to play. It was like sitting down to a complex instrument, trying to figure out how to play it. And drums and violins appeared in the audience to play with Kene-J and Mark [where was Tomek?]. But there were too many possibilities within the crowd, so it took most of the time opening the packages so to speak, and we were just getting started playing when it was time to wrap it up [and it was a very satisfying powerful wrap up!]. There was a lot that happened. But it was the tip of the iceberg. That is why it is a series! If I was driven by my own expectations, judgments, bits I have thought of years ago but time/space for which has not appeared yet, etc, I would get in the way of the performance. My main job of the night was to guide things away from casual, social, judgments, and other blocks to getting deeper. It worked. We curved away from “democracy” where people vote on their judgments and desires, curved into the tribal body where serious fun could occur, which was why most people were there.

As our T-shirt says, I SURVIVED THE UNCOMFORTABLE ZONES OF FUN! Da Boyz: It was the first “Uncomfortable Zones of Fun” we had done in 7 months! The last performance was near the end of May, and then Frank went into the hospital about a week later. It was also forecast to be the rainiest day of the winter season so far. The three of us headed out as soon as we were ready, Erika in one car, and us in the other, carting all the performance stuff … the rain had held off for most of the loading of the cars, but now it was raining, but not too bad. Frank’s weather karma was working!

When we got to the space, it was all parked up, but soon we had spots right in front. We loaded everything in very quickly in the rain, and then Corey ran over to Peet’s to get Mikee a small latte, and the set up was in full swing. Alexi got the large heater going to get the space nice and toasty, and we ended up using that primarily for the performance. They seemed to have fixed it so it worked very well, and was much less noisy … what a wonderful space! It was really great to be back there again!

Almost right away, Mark (Phog Masheen) was there, up from L.A. to do several performances in the bay area, and would be in the band for this performance. Mark helped us set things up. Even with the extra time, we were setting up right up to 8pm! And by that time, there were already a whole bunch of people arrived and ready! Alexi counted 14 people at the beginning, and it grew to 22. Amazing! On the rainiest day of the year, and during the xmas season. Last December’s performance had been very small. Plus, it had been gone for 7 months!

Like always, Frank started going around the room … how did people hear of the performance, what attracted them to it?

There was a young guy in front with dark curly hair, and a girl next to him, they came together … he said that he had been to a previous performance and really liked it, but the girl he came with did not feel the same way … he said that it freaked her out, and she just said it was “weird, weird!” But the girl he brought tonight had a totally different response to coming to the performance … when he told her about it, she was into the whole idea. Frank asked him what he does, and he talked about a spiritual practice that he is creating … he said it was a kind of tantric practice, but also based on role playing games … he talked about people choosing to play a certain role, and just playing it … like he wanted to go with a group of 4 people to Albany Bulb to do an art piece where each person would be a different character … one person would predict the future, etc. … Frank asked him something along the lines of “Would it be for real?” And he said something like that it could be … We weren’t sure if we ever got exactly what he meant, but it seemed to be about playing in reality, and being whatever you want to be … choosing to create a reality …

His friend had just gotten out of school in Sonoma, and was now working … Frank told a story about performing at Sonoma State in the 80s, when they brought the OBR there … how the response from the students was really enthusiastic … people taking off their clothes, climbing onstage, etc.! But afterward, a feminist group on campus, who had not actually attended the performance, got very uptight about what had happened, and lobbied to create censoring rules for future performances on campus! Frank was proud of that! People liked the story …

Frank also talked with a couple, who were among the first to arrive. They had seen the flier on San Pablo, and were attracted by the look of it, the description, and the guy said there were great reviews on the flier! The idea of “uncomfortable” fun was attractive to them.

Frank asked her how uncomfortable she was willing to be? She said well she was willing to be pretty uncomfortable … she noticed the big backdrop with all the nude bodies, and didn’t know if it was going to go that far, but … Frank said it usually does go that far. Her partner said he did urban farming … Frank told them that Mark (Phog Masheen) had brought them seeds that his wife saves from their home garden, and he said he had seeds out in his car that he could give them.

At some point, Kene-J came in … Frank said, “Get to work, son!” Kene-J started playing with Mark …

The first person Frank actually talked with was a guy who had just met Mark next door at Lanesplitter pizza. Frank turned to him first, and said, “George Clooney! What brought you here?” He looked a lot like George Clooney! Mark was carrying his trumpet, and had told the guy about the performance, and he seemed attracted by the idea of improvisation … he ended up playing the drums for most of the night.

Next to him was a group of 4 friends, 2 guys and 2 gals … Frank asked one of the guys how he ended up coming to the performance? He said he had seen the fliers around for a long time, and then didn’t see them for a while, and then saw the latest flier up on Shattuck and Prince Streets, and decided to come! Frank asked him what he does, and he talked about dancing (ecstatic, contact improv …) … Frank asked him without clothes? He laughed to himself … well there was one time …! He also liked to sing … Frank asked him what kind of singing? He said karaoke, and then sang, “It’s just more fun to sing things …!” Frank said, “Go on …” He started singing about the weather, improvising … Frank sang along. Frank suggested that he sing without words, and they did a short duet, vocalizing … Frank turned to Miriam, who was also there from the beginning … “How did I do?” Miriam was Frank’s swallow therapist, who worked with Frank for months after the hospital stay to get him back to a “normal way of eating”, but then corrected it, saying, well, “Frank’s way” She said he did great! Frank said that singing, he still felt the trach … Dr. Kerbavaz had said that there was scar tissue there from where the tracheotomy had been, which Frank was feeling. Miriam called it a “phantom trach.” She said he could do vocal exercises …

There was also a guy in the audience who had come from an internet listing … he was an older man, perhaps from the middle east … he had been attracted by the description … had never seen anything like it. Zorana was also there … the Bosnian journalist that Corey had met at BNG, shopping for her neighbor … she would be translating the Russian article about Frank. Frank asked her about the article, was it good? She said it was very good, very complimentary, and she also talked about how they were impressed that Frank, a disabled man, could do what he does … that in Russia and Eastern Europe, the economy is so poor, and the way things are set up, “handicapped” people do not have any opportunities, live in poverty … Frank also asked her what she thought of the photos in the article? She had basically told Corey before that they had gotten her curious! She told Frank that the photos were what had brought her. Frank asked her too how uncomfortable she was willing to be, and she said something like that it was all new to her, she wasn’t sure … maybe she would watch first … Frank said, “the quicker, the easier”, which she did seem to get. Later, when Frank returned to talk to her, she actually said she had to go … she had to pick someone up at 10 … Frank said to come back, and she said she would. And, Frank said, next time, without anything to do afterward.

Ken Cheetham was there too, the guy who maintains the Bay Area Progressive Directory … Frank asked him to define underground, and then progressive … he said trying to maintain a more egalitarian society.

And Phillip Huang, a performance artist, was there too … Frank said, “About time!” He agreed! A little later, Frank had him do a piece, and he did something from his latest show, which he said was an exclusive for Frank, because it had not been performed in public before. It was a sketch between what seemed to be a disabled girl making balloon animals and an uptight woman passer-by. It was intense … the disabled girl has the woman wear a funny balloon hat that she makes for her, and dance silly … Frank played with Phillip as he danced around as the uptight woman … and then, after she has gotten the woman to dance sillier and sillier, the girl says, “Who is the freak now, bitch?” The woman is crushed, takes off the balloon hat ….

Frank came back to the group of 4 … he talked to one of the girls … why did she come? She said she had not actually seen the flier herself, but was attracted to some of the words that she had heard from it … Like what? Frank asked. “Fun” … she said … “Uncomfortable?” Frank asked. No, she said, that wasn’t one of them.
The other girl in the group had not seen the flier either, but had come along because it sounded fun. She is a singer too, and in a band called Omnicircus, which Frank later talked to her about booking for the Shaman’s Den. She said she also worked with teenagers in after school programs, and generally fought the good fight against fear in the world (something like this). She described Omnicircus as robotic opera, and Frank asked if she would sing? Sure! She went right into a bluesy funky jazzy song, and the band played with her, and Frank sang with her. Afterward, Frank asked Miriam again how he did? Both she and the girl from Omnicircus said he did great. It was a fun song.

Frank then turned to another group of 4 that had come in more recently. It was quickly clear that they were a couple, guy and girl, and two guy friends. Frank asked them what brought them to the performance. The girl said that they were looking for something to do that night that was free, and this came up! They all pointed to one guy, who they all indicated was the one who really wanted to come to this, was the one who was interested in getting uncomfortable. When Frank asked the girl how uncomfortable she was willing to be, she pointed to the friend …”He’s the one, ask him!”

Frank of course kept on with her … he asked her if the friend could dress her in only the costumes and jewelry? When she established that this meant taking her clothes off, she again pointed to the friend, no but he will do it! She mentioned her comfort zone. Frank suggested that she could dress the friend in only the costumes, but then she would have to let him do the same. They weren’t going for it. Frank pointed out that since the friend was interested in “uncomfortable”, it really was more uncomfortable for him to dress the girl in the costumes, then to be dressed himself, which they all agreed with … At some point, the friend asked for a vote from the crowd as to what they should do, and Frank said, “This is not a democracy!” It was already established that the girl was not going to get dressed in costumes, but this is when the gal from the first group of 4 said that she objected to a girl being the first one to take off her clothes. This was the girl who said that “uncomfortable” was not one of the words she had liked.

In response, Frank asked Unruhlee to take off his clothes. He took them right off and sat naked on the floor. So there, the first person undressed was not a woman! Back to the uncomfortable group … the girl was willing to dress the guy up in the costumes, and they came up very uncomfortably and he quickly undressed himself, and she quickly covered him up with costumes! But Frank said he wanted her to undress him, and then put the costumes on him. He gave a short protest, “I thought we were doing it, but guess it wasn’t good enough!” But he reluctantly put all his clothes back on, and meanwhile Frank turned to something else … perhaps this is when he asked Miriam to talk about their relationship.

Miriam talked about being assigned to Frank through home health to do swallow therapy, and help Frank get to the point where he could get the trach. out. She described coming to the house, meeting Linda and Mikee and Frank, the art on the walls, and how much fun she had talking with them. They would do the swallowing tests, but then most of it was just talking about movies, life … She said that knowing she would be coming to be with Frank made it worth getting out of bed in the morning! She then asked Frank how he would describe their relationship. He said “fun” and “sexy”, which she liked a lot!
Back to the uncomfortable pair … were they ready to go again? The guy was surprised that Frank came back to him, said something like he had hoped maybe Frank forgot about him. Oh no, Frank was just stalling!
So they came up again to the costume area, and very uncomfortably, the girl undressed the guy, and then he danced around nervously, obviously trying to hide his cock, and trying to get her to put something on down there! But she wasn’t doing it quick enough, was draping necklaces around his neck! It was very uncomfortable! Once she had some costumes on him, Frank asked him how he felt? He said something along the lines of feeling uncomfortable, but expanding through that feeling … Frank asked, “into comfortable?” He said yes … Frank said now, and again later, that “comfort zone is fragile”, that real comfort is in willing to be uncomfortable. He went right from the uncomfortable pair to the first group of 4, and asked them if they would put on only the costumes, and they were all willing without any real hesitation. They all got up and stripped and went over to the costumes and jewelry, putting stuff on, having fun with it. Frank asked them if they would do a dance with him? Sure! As the band played on, they improvised a dance with Frank, who had his clothes taken off too. It was a fun dance. But one of the girls didn’t join the dance … as she was heading off with her friends, she noticed the video camera, and went up to Corey to ask him if he was filming this? Yes. “Is it going to be shown anywhere?” Yes, Corey said, on Frank’s show on the internet and on Berkeley Public Access. “Is there any way you can just not film me?” Corey said, “I don’t think so …” So she sat it out … but when her friends came over to dance with her and tried to pull her into the dance, and she danced with them from where she was, Corey filmed that! It might have been around this point, after the dance, that Frank asked Kene-J to come up and do 3 of his rap songs, which is always really fun. Linda was saying later that it felt like Kene-J risked a lot coming to the performances and doing his songs in that context, that you know it had to be “uncomfortable” for him, but he trusted Frank, and this had a real effect on people … judgement transformed into enjoying, bopping to the music, having fun, enjoying Kene-J. At some point, Frank returned to the young couple in front, and asked them if they would put on only the costumes, and they said sure … they took their clothes right off and put on the costumes, and then sat back down again in front … Frank asked them to talk about how the performance felt so far, and he said that he enjoyed it, and talked about how last time he came, he felt that the performance, like in Frank’s warning sign, had effects that happened afterward, for days and weeks … he felt like it was going to be that way again. She said she really liked it, liked people getting undressed, putting on the costumes … Frank said that she reminded him of Kat from Kat & Reuben, Plate & Dr. Rectangle … Linda talked about how they met them in North Carolina, and what they were like, and what their LUVeR show was like … how creative they were …
One of the first group of four, a big guy with a beard, raised his hand to say a few things he had been thinking about. He referred to people’s discomfort with undressing, nudity, etc., and said that our bodies are just matter, physical, just “meat” … we are not our bodies, we are soul. Its not who we are. It doesn’t mean anything to be nude, it’s just playing with bodies, and that it was definitely a different context for being naked than for instance, Harbin Hot Springs … that here, there was not an accepted rationale for the nudity, so it seemed to be more challenging for people, more direct, more “uncomfortable”. Frank said it was connected, the same (body and soul)… and that our bodies are for playing. After the guy finished what he was saying, Frank told the story of performing at Harbin, where the guy who booked him tried to censor what Frank would do … whereas a bunch of the people who saw Frank’s piece and heard that he was not able to do what he originally planned on doing, wanted him to do it anyway! So Frank ended up doing a second piece afterward for them!

The guy went on to say at some point that to focus on the differences in our bodies, color, sex, etc., is off the track, that it gets in the way of healing the bigger world issues … Frank said it was the same, it is nonlinear …
Now Frank continued going around the room and asking people what they thought of the performance thus far … there had been a kind of exodus during Kene-J’s set, so the group had gotten smaller …
Frank asked Unruhlee to talk about his experience of the performance … Unruhlee said that he had taken off his clothes, which felt liberating, but then after sitting there for a while, he felt alone, and didn’t have the same experience that he usually has, and has come to expect from a Frank Moore performance … It felt like he had come in with a lot of expectations, and wasn’t really just melting into the experience, following, enjoying … he had wanted something to happen a certain way, and when it didn’t, he seemed to pass judgment … Frank said, “Wait until you leave the performance.” It felt like Frank just saying that immediately changed Unruhlee’s experience!

Miriam said that it was about what she had expected, and that it was like being at Frank’s house, with all of the colorful art on the walls, sitting and talking with Frank, and never knowing what was going to happen next, who might stop by, etc.!
The girl who came with the urban farmer said that the performance actually felt very serious to her, as opposed to “fun” … she described herself as a “sponge” for other people’s emotions, and said that she had really taken in how uncomfortable some people were during the performance, and that this had become a lot of her experience … she said she felt that when she was able to shake off that feeling that she had picked up from others, she would better be able to experience what had happened.

Frank came to a girl who had sat through the whole performance, and Frank had never had a chance to talk with her until now … she said that the performance had made her uncomfortable … she was uncomfortable the whole time. Frank asked how? She explained that it not being used to seeing people nude in public. Frank said how not? She said, “Well, I am from Ohio”! Frank said that he was too! He was born in Columbus, and lived in Dayton. She said she was from a small town near Dayton … Frank asked her why she moved out here? She said to get out of Ohio! She wanted to move to another country, and California was the closest to that, being from Ohio, without actually leaving the country. Frank said something like people come from Ohio for things like this! He also said that a lot of his cast have been from Ohio over the years. Maggie was her name, and she went on to say that she does art, and she tries to bring people together, she was really impressed by the way Frank just did it, with so much confidence, seeing his vision through to reality, and that it really inspired her.

Frank asked her if she would come up and read one of his poems? “I Came To Play”. She said yes. She came up and sat next to Frank and read the most powerful reading of the poem that we think we have ever heard, and was visibly moved by reading it. She looked like she was going to cry. You could hear murmurs in the audience … Linda said later that it felt like the poem was bringing the experience of the performance to a deeper place, making it more concrete and giving it a name … Maggie was very warm toward Frank, and it was clear that the poem had really moved her. Frank said, “The End” But he asked Maggie if she would want to get together with him, and she said yes, and Linda exchanged cards …

Frank turned to the young couple in front, and told them they did great jobs as plants! And would they come back next time to do it? They acted mystified … but said yes …. Frank said that its great the way they are acting like they’re not plants! They laughed!! Then Frank turned to the first group of 4 that had danced with him, and said the same, thanking them for being such great plants! And would they come back too to be plants again? They would see!
Afterward, Mark Phog Masheen came up to Frank, and Frank asked him to talk about his experience … he said that the big teaching lesson he was going to take back with him was how the way that Frank asked questions opened everything up. People don’t want to be told to do things, but by asking the questions, it allowed people to come into the experience themselves … People hung around for a while talking, and talking with Frank … we were really amazed by the performance! We did it! Like always, we talked about everything as we broke down the set, amazed at all that had happened in the night … and we had sold out of Frank’s poetry chapbook, “Chapped Lap”!

It felt so good to be back, to see Frank up there, doing so great after the whole hospital ordeal. Frank was back in the saddle, was amazing. Always had the perfect thing to say, conducting the performance into another amazing transformative experience for everyone … It was a really really good feeling to be back there together.

Erika:
This was the first performance in six months since Frank had been in the hospital. There was a 100 % chance of rain but the rain cleared when we were loading all the stuff in and out. We arrived early since we had not set up for a while and Mark from Phog Masheen was there and helped us set up. Frank, Linda and Mikee arrived and we did the final set up and then streams and streams of people started coming in. They would come in and stand over by the door so Linda and Frank told them to come in and sit down on the mats. Frank said that he should get sick more often because there were so many people coming to the performance.

Frank started going around asking people how they had heard about the performance. Most people said that they saw fliers. Some people just saw the flyers today and came and others had been seeing the flyers for a long time. Frank asked people what they were attracted to in the flyers and one guy said because there were good reviews about Frank on the flyer. Others said they were attracted to the naked people, and the words on the flyer like fun, shaman, and uncomfortable. One woman said that she was ok with being uncomfortable and Frank asked her how uncomfortable and she said, well I saw naked people on the flyer and I’m not sure it’s going to go that far. Frank said that we usually do go that far.

There was a guy who had come to a performance before with his roommate and they had left because she really freaked out and thought that it was weird but when he told his friend that he had brought with him tonight about it she was very interested. He had been studying the Kabala, Tarot and Tantra and was coming up with a role playing game that was about life and following
life. Later in the performance Frank asked him if the performance could be part of his game or role play and he said yes. He said that he read the poster on the wall behind Frank warning people that they might experience the effects of the performance weeks and weeks after the performance. He said that he felt that that was true, that had been his experience from the last time that he came to a performance. The friend that he brought with him had graduated from Sonoma State and Frank and Linda told a story about when Frank’s Outrageous Beauty Review had performed there. They did short sexy acts. One was to a song by Devo. A guy in a wheelchair would come out with his nurse. Then his nurse strips her nurses uniform off and reveals a black leather S & M outfit and starts whipping him and tearing him apart, there were body parts flying, blood and she peed on stage and poured it on him and did an enema and smeared that on him too. It was two hours of acts like that and the audience went wild taking their clothes off and really enjoying it. Then after the fact a feminist group on campus who had not attended the performance heard about it and they were very upset. Out of Frank’s performance a list was made of things that performers could not do at Sonoma State.

There was a group of four friends who had all seen flyers for the performance individually. They were singers and dancers and one woman worked with kids. Frank asked a couple of them to sing and they did. The guy started singing with words and Frank told him to sing without words. Frank said much better. Later Frank asked the four of them if they would dance nude with him and they said yes. One of the women got undressed but once she saw Corey with the camera and wanted to know what was going to be done with the video she sat down and didn’t dance. The three other nude dancers danced and played around Frank, touching him and then making sounds and singing. It was beautiful to see Frank with only a fluffy red boa on, which he looked great in of course, with some nude people dancing around him. The two guys were dancing around Frank and touching him on the arms. The nude dancers would go over to the woman who had decided not to dance and interact with her so in the end she was in the camera quite a lot.

There was another group of people who came in together. They just heard about the performance the day of and were looking for something free to go to. Frank was asking them if they would like to be uncomfortable and they said no but that their friend would. Frank asked the woman to dress the guy in the costumes and jewelry that we had and nothing else and then the man would dress up the woman in the costumes with nothing else. The guy hesitated and was nervous and uncomfortable. He wanted to take a vote to see if that is what everyone wanted him to do and Frank said that this is not a democracy. He tried to ask everyone again after Frank said that. He said that he didn’t know what to do. Frank asked Unrulee to get undressed
and he did. The guy finally came up and he undressed himself jumping around nervously. Frank said to get dressed and start again, that his friend would be undressing him and dressing him in costumes. She undressed him and put on some costumes and jewelry and he was jumping around making a spectacle of himself. Everyone was cheering him on and Frank said not to feed his ego. Once the guy was all in costume and jewelry Frank asked him if he was uncomfortable. He said that he was at first but he wasn’t so much anymore. Frank said that real comfort is expanding what is comfortable, being willing to be uncomfortable in order to expand what is comfortable. The guy thought about it for a minute and he said yes and his flouncing around seemed to settle a bit. Frank said that he could go sit down again.

Frank’s speech therapist Miriam came to the performance. At one point Frank asked her to tell everyone about their relationship. She said that she was a visiting speech therapist who visited with Frank, Linda and Mikee at home after Frank had gotten out of the hospital. She said that she loved being with them, looking at the art on the walls, never knowing who would stop by when she was there or what would happen. She told Frank once that he was the reason she got out of bed in the morning, that he was the best most fun patient that she had. She would come to the house and watch Frank as he swallowed and taught him things so that he could eat like Frank again and not use the feeding tube. At the end of the performance she said that the performance felt just like coming over to Frank, Linda and Mikee’s house. There was art on the walls to look at and you never knew what was going to happen next.

Frank had this guy named Phillip, who is a performance artist, come up and do a short piece. It was an intense piece in which he played two characters. The first one was disabled and asks the other character if they like balloon animals. The other character says yes and so the disabled
person blows up a balloon animal that doesn’t look like an animal and tells the person to put it on their head. They hesitate and then put the balloon on their head. Then the disabled person says now put your hips into it. Frank stuck out his hand at this point and starts rubbing at Phillip’s butt causing the character with the balloon animal on its head to move the hips more. The disabled person then said, Now who’s the freak, bitch?

A woman who shops at BNG where Corey works came to the performance. She is working on translating an article about Frank that had just recently been in a Russian magazine. She said she was still going to do the translation. She said that it was a good article, that people with disabilities were blown away by what Frank was doing with his life. She said that many people
in Russia who were disabled did not have such opportunities because of the state of the country and for financial reasons. Frank asked her what she thought of the photos in the magazine article and she said that the photos were what made her want to come to the performance. There were full page spreads of photos from the performances in the magazine. Later it turned out that she needed to leave the performance early because she had to pick someone up. Frank told her to come back to another one and to not schedule something afterwards so she could stay the whole time.

There was a woman from Ohio who said that she was uncomfortable the whole performance. Frank asked her why she was uncomfortable and she said she was not used to seeing naked people in public. Frank asked her how so and she said that she was from Ohio. Frank said that he was born in Ohio and that there had been people in his cast from Ohio so there were people from Ohio who liked to get naked, but they moved away from Ohio. Frank asked her why she left Ohio and she said that she wanted to go to a different country and California was the closest she could get to that was still in this country. Frank said California, where people get naked.

One of the guys who had danced around Frank naked in the group said that it was about context. He said that people are comfortable being nude in front of each other in public places like at harbin hot springs, and other times like in a public performance such as this people are not comfortable. He said that bodies are just flesh. We are really spirits. Frank said that they are connected and that it is fun to play in the body. Frank had a harbin hot springs story too. There was a guy there who was putting on a performance festival and he wanted Frank to be a part of it so he showed another guy at Harbin a video of one of Frank’s performances which was Frank
nude and erotically dancing as Linda read one of his poems. Then a woman in the audience feeling turned on by it took her clothes off and started dancing too. So the people at harbin saw that and wanted to censor what Frank could do. Ordinarily Frank would have not gone to do the performance because they were limiting what he could do but this time he decided to play with it and included poems he had written about censorship addressing what harbin was doing. Afterwards the guy who had invited them said that Frank always challenges him. He was red faced and Frank was never invited back to Harbin again.

At the end of the performance Unrulee said that he felt alone. He said that he never felt alone at one of Frank’s performances before. He said that he was happy to get naked but tonight he had not gotten to play, explore with anyone. He had pictures. Frank said to wait until he left the performance. Another woman said that the night had felt less like fun and more serious. She said that she was like a sponge and had felt other people getting uncomfortable and that once she shook that off she would be able to feel more clearly how the night had been.

Frank asked Kene J to come up and sing three songs. Some people started putting costumes on and dancing around getting into his music. Throughout the performance the band played in the back ground made up of Kene J, Mark from Phog Masheen and various others who would get up throughout to play an instrument. Some people brought their own instruments. We were all blown away. After all we had been through with Frank in the hospital, there he was, conducting a performance not missing a beat. Many people came to play and Frank had much to work with. It was a great night!

At the end of the performance the woman from Ohio said she was blown away by Frank’s self confidence, by the way that he created his art with everyone who was here and how he brought people together. Frank asked her if she would read his poem, “I Came to Play.” She went up and sat next to Frank and read it powerfully and beautifully. At times it seemed like she was going to cry as it touched deep chords within her. After the performance Frank asked her if she would like to get together and she said yes. The reading of “I Came to Play,” summed up the night and seemed to touch deep chords of the many people who were there.