... sort of
I am recovering from the the very magical week-long intensive with our
Jennifer from Toronto. It was extremely intimate, small, deep, and satisfying
... openning new possibilities and doors to deeper nameless physical
trances. She is fearless and very focused. And all week she gave me
shit for stopping sending alt. news stories to the esalon.
So ... and she has agreed to video concerts, rallies, protests, etc.
in Toronto for luver.
HEY, JEN ... WE ATE CHOCOLATE CAKE FROM THE ORGANIC CAFE FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY
TODAY. Turns out today is also the birthday of Carlos, my student who
died from aids.
The intensive actually started with THE FREEDOM TO BE HUMAN BALL. it
was the most sucessful one ever ... sure, we barely broke even ... so
if someone sees it linearly as a benefit for luver, he would see it
as a bust ... but we get money nonlinearly ... the balls are just magnets
attracting, creating community. Breaking even just means there will
be more balls. For the most part ... except the would-be first "act"
who turned out to be a snob, who pulled up to raman, stared horrified,
and sped away! .. Most got that it was a communal journey into a tribal
ritualistic magic, exchanging/listening, traveling together all night
to many performance realities, being inspired with/by one another. most
understood ... understood that the community spirit was the thing, THE
STAR ... that it wasn't the kind of thing that you showed up for as
late as possible, did YOUR ACT for the AUDIENCE, then left. In clubs
Ihave to fit into that limited frame. But because of what john has created
at Ramen, I can put on these communal celebrations ... reminding me
of the community dances we had in Santa Fe in the early 70s ... being
there for one another ... no names, no stars, no place to go to ...
each performer pushed the experience deeper, taking it in difference
directions, full of surprises, very liquid.
Most understood. So by the time of the jam ... always late, after a
lot had been stripped away ... THE CHEROTIC ALL-STARS had swelled to
include members of all the other bands (except one) as well as "the
hard core" as well as first timers ... all knowing they were important,
all surrendering/melting ... layers upon layer both audio and erotic
visuals ... we could not fit on the stag ... so the stage melted away
... a surrounding wave of rich, intense, deep sounds ... then "the
audience" started picking up mics and instruments ... the orgasm
spread. at the peak, the band was 20 people, all connected in making
powerful reality changing music ... over 50 minutes of this erotic trance!
(we'll be playing the second half of the ball this saturday 4pm pt ... AND AS I WRITE THIS, MIKEE HAS PUT THE WHOLE FUCKING
BALL UP AT THE
So sure, Ican hear some thinking: WITH ALL OF THOSE PEOPLE, I WOULDN'T
MATTER, I WOULDN'T BE SHOWCASED.
But they do not understand magic!